Jumping through hoops? No.

Jumping? Or paving! 
At first my board breaks were becoming to feel like a hoop I had to jump through to achieve my black belt(without white strips). I couldn’t seem to see the value in them as I kept failing and not breaking the boards. And by not breaking my boards over and over again my mental health got low. As I thought I was never going to be able to achieve the break. 
But as I was practicing a few days before I was planning to break them I was told something. “Take a breath and lower your centre”. So that’s what I did. I took a deep breath and told myself what I was doing and where I was. And all of a sudden my mind quieted down and I could concentrate on what I was really doing. I could feel when I was supposed to be rotating, when I should release my power, when I should be hitting the board. 
Board breaking no longer felt like a hoop. I was just flooded with information and different insights I had not thought of before. There are so many different ways you can think about the rotation, well still having the same outcome!
The day comes when I planned to break my boards. I set them up how I had practiced and I’m standing in my position. And I pause, I take a second and just breathed. I ground my body, as well as I ground my mind. I tell myself what I am doing. And in that moment I knew the boards would break. AND THEY DID! 
As I feel like I learnt so much I was a little upset that they had broken, but at the same time I am so happy that they had broke. And that I had gotten the opportunity to go through this step of the way on my journey! I am going to keep working on board breaks even though they broke, keeping this moment close to me. 

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