Shira's blogs

Last week, and into this week I have been putting off this blog. I didn’t really know what to write… Partly because I haven’t been training the best, and partly because my mental health has not been in the best place.  Firslly I have been going to the gym in the mornings on mon, wed, and fri. This has started to become more and more of a struggle because I don’t like waking up really early and it’s stressing me about having to wake up for school coming in the fall. Which leads me into the second reason. Which is that I have been really stressed for secondary school. I don’t think I can consistently wake up early (like 5am) to get to school on time. This doesn’t sound like a really hard thing to accomplish but I have troubles sleeping. I find I wake up like 4-6 times throughout the night. Along with a bunch of different “what if this happens” scenarios that just build up in my head; I have been quite overstimulated.  But on a more positive note! Every time I see a certain perso...

Last weekend I went to open training. And well there was not many people there I found it really helpful! I mostly worked on my katana form. I went over it with Sifu Hayes; going move by move. It was just small tweaks that made a HUGE difference. We also went over things I was struggling with in the form which made me feel a LOT better about how I am doing them. Like keeping my elbow up, dropping my shoulder, and going faster in different moves etc. So now I have guide of what I need to work on.  Last week I also went over snake with Sifu Rybak which helped me get a direction to go in. Both my forms (in my opinion) seem to be improving the way I am wanting them to. I find getting help from others helps me improve a lot quicker but I am always scared to get help.. But when I finally do, it helps me immensely.  push ups - 1030 Sit ups - 1025 Hand form - 265 Weapon - 225 Kilometres - 713 Aok - 512 Blogs - 22 +1 Sparring - 125 Personal :  Gratitude - 5 Journaling - 10 Keeping...

Last week I had a lot of ups and downs. For instant one minute I would be full of energy and the next I would want to crawl into a corner. This made things a lot harder. I would find it took a lot of energy to do simple tasks, like even getting out of bed. Even this blog is being published later then I wanted. When I get down I sort of just close off and just shut everything out. Which in retrospect it's not a good thing. I have been trying moving to a new location(like from one room in the house to another), and sometimes it works but other times it doesn't. But within all the harder moments there were good. One of which was hanging with my friend, we bleached t-shirts over the weekend which was really fun. And I have gone on some deep dives in kung fu which have been really cool! So even though I see a lot of harder times there is also lots of good.  push ups - 1000 Sit ups - 1015 Hand form - 255 Weapon - 205 Kilometres - 697 Aok - 491 Blogs - 21 +1 Sparring - 125 Personal :...