Stress and small accomplishments

Last week, and into this week I have been putting off this blog. I didn’t really know what to write… Partly because I haven’t been training the best, and partly because my mental health has not been in the best place. 
Firslly I have been going to the gym in the mornings on mon, wed, and fri. This has started to become more and more of a struggle because I don’t like waking up really early and it’s stressing me about having to wake up for school coming in the fall. Which leads me into the second reason. Which is that I have been really stressed for secondary school. I don’t think I can consistently wake up early (like 5am) to get to school on time. This doesn’t sound like a really hard thing to accomplish but I have troubles sleeping. I find I wake up like 4-6 times throughout the night. Along with a bunch of different “what if this happens” scenarios that just build up in my head; I have been quite overstimulated. 
But on a more positive note! Every time I see a certain person(at Kung fu) we have to do 10 pushups. I have been working on doing them tight, like scraping my ribs. And I feel like I’m getting better! There are some good days along with bad days but overall I think I see the progression. Aswell, the small training I have been doing has been very specific, like I only focus on a few moves of a form or just a technique. This has been working for me as it’s helping fix my eye for detail and correcting little by little! I feel like it has improved my overall technique of doing things. 

push ups - 1070
Sit ups - 1045
Hand form - 267
Weapon - 235
Kilometres - 763
Aok - 532
Blogs - 23 +1
Sparring - 125

Personal : 
Gratitude - 5
Journaling - 14
Keeping room clean - I'm going to try and have it clean by today, but it mostly clean
Full lion dance - 5
Drumming - 90 min
Buddha - 0
Lion feelings blogs - 0

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