Mentally crashing

Over the last month I haven’t had the best mental health. I seem to keep crashing mentally, and the crashes just seem to get worse each time. This has been really frustrating because I seem to have to put my life on hold when I crash. This has been affecting my school, sleep, eating, as well as my Kung fu. I tend to basically stop taking care of myself when I crash.. Then it’s hard to build up my routine again. 
This week I crashed on Monday evening, and it lasted for a good day. And yes that doesn’t seem like the worse but normally they only last for a hour or two so in comparison it was bad. But once I started to feel better and after I talked to a few different people(thank you if I talked to you) I think I’m starting to realize something. I try to make the times when I feel good last for a long time and the bad to only be short. But this is the same with kung fu! I try and keep when I have motivation long but when I don’t have motivation I change what I’m doing so that I do have motivation, so that time is shorter. I think I have to start doing this with my mental health as well. As I normally just try and sit it out as it feels so helpless. Where as I tried talking to people this last crash. Which helped me get out sooner then I would have. So thank you.
 
-numbers- 
sit-ups - 1715
push-ups - 1855
hand - 185
weapon - 240
Aok - 920
Kilometers - 924
blogs - 46 + 1
sparring - 177

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