Start?

I have been trying to write this blog all week but couldn't think of anything to write about. Over the last few months I just feel like I keep having to restart again and again. I have been feeling really lost in how to break the cycle, and I'm still struggling with breaking it but I think I have some new clarity. 

Starting anew again and again doesn't have to be a bad thing. It gives you the chance to revaluate and look at what you have and haven't been doing. With it just becoming the new year I have gotten a new sort of motivation that I'm going to try and hold on to. Today I did a few reps of my forms, asked my dad and brother a question. And just doing the form made me realize how much I missed doing them(I stopped doing them over the break, which was not good...) but it also made me realize how good I feel when I do my forms. Sure they aren't as fast as some but I still see all the hard work I put into them and how much more I still have to explore them(which makes me excited!). 

Overall I have been feeling pretty good today and I feel ready for the next steps in my life, with starting my second semester of school starting on the 8th, just some personal goals that I have set for myself for this year. As well as some plans for kung fu this year too. 

push ups - 1755
Sit ups - 1719
Hand form - 305
Weapon - 285
Kilometres - 1052
Aok - 795
Blogs - 33 +1
Sparring - 155

Personal : 
Gratitude - 10
Journaling - 14
Keeping room clean - just cleaned my room today
Drumming - 150 min
Buddha - 0

Lion feelings blogs - 0

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