Shira's blogs

the tiger challenge was putting me into a lot of stress the few days before. Leading to me not thinking I would win anything and really just not wanting to let anyone down. Overall I didn't place where I wanted to but I did feel like I have improved since last year.  Point sparring has always been the one section that I like to do. Even though I did not win in that one I was less scared of sihing Ward(Logan)which was a really good thing to feel! As well as I was able to come back and still be calm after things happened.  The whole day was filled with laughter and smiles! I was a bit upset I didn't get to see Aviva perform. But overall it was a really good day! -numbers-  sit-ups - 980 push-ups - 945 hand - 55 weapon - 80 Aok - 365 Kilometers - 365 blogs - 16 + 1 sparring - 95

I finished making my musical form and I think it looks really good. It was hard to get the motivation to get up and do it but I think that now it is getting late as the tiger challenge is next weekend. Even tho it's kind of last minute I'm going to not let that stop me from doing my best.  I have still been in a sort of dip and can't seem to get myself out. My mental health has taken a sharp dip and it seems to just be getting worse or staying the same I can't really tell anymore. It has been affecting my school and kung fu and just everything. I'm still trying to look at stuff with a positive attitude but it does get hard sometimes. I also feel like I'm writing blogs less for the intent of others reading but more for showing me what I did when I was struggling.  -numbers- Sit-ups - 980 push-ups - 945 hand - 55 weapon - 80 Aok - 260 kilometers - 350 blogs - 15 + 1  sparring - 75

This week was really hectic for me and I ended up missing quite a bit of Kung fu. Recently Kung fu has felt like I haven’t been making much progress. Even though some of my forms I have made progress it’s not as much or a good as I have been wanting them to be. I know I just have to get down and work on them but I have felt really overwhelmed with school and just general life, as I have had a lot going on.  But here are some things that I have gotten so I can try and keep my perspective positive. I got help to make the spear form to not feel as “soft”. With some help we realized I was not snapping at the end and just sort of pushing the spear out. So this was really good bc I have not felt like the way I was doing this  form has not been strong.  Some of my forms like da mu hsing and Lao gar I have been focusing on my intent and power and it has been improving slightly. As well as small tweaks here and there.  -numbers- Sit-ups - 980 push-ups - 945 hand - 55 weapon -...

I have really been struggling with a lot of things recently. Mental health, school, Kung fu, and just keeping up with social stuff. My school has been causing me to have to miss Kung fu, which leads to my mental health to crash, which then leads to not being able to focus, then not doing good at school work and paying attention, then the loop just starts over. It all seems like a lot at the moment and I’m having a really hard time trying to stay positive. There are times when I do feel more relaxed but the stress and anxiety is always there. I don’t really know what to do, but I just thought I would right it down. Help get it out of my head.  I don’t really have any progress with Kung fu, but my partner for team forms and I have made some progress which has been nice. Although I’m really nervous for the tiger challenge. Although really excited but still have a lot to do.  -numbers- Sit-ups - 910 push-ups - 875 hand - 51 weapon - 70 Aok - 225 kilometers - 300 blogs - 13 + 1...

My dad said something to me a few days ago. It was like "if you want something don't wait and let others take it, go take it yourself." This can apply to anything you want in life. Even small things that don't affect anyone, say like you need to clean something up don't wait for it to start affecting you, take the opportunity and do it.  This keyed in to something we did in the adult classes. We were doing multiple opponent sparring and instead of waiting and letting the others come to you, you need to take the opportunity and get someone else out then your only dealing with one other person. Even with point sparring you need to land the first hit. 'The match is already determined before it's even started'. So if you always wait to let others come to you instead of taking initued then nothing will go the way you want.  -numbers- Sit-ups - 840 push-ups - 815 hand - 51 weapon - 66 Aok - 205 kilometers - 285 blogs - 12 + 1  sparring - 70

Even  though we are just picking up garbage, I had so much fun! My group went across the highway and we found some pretty interesting things. The whole day was a great opportunity to get to know our fellow martial artists from our school, as well as getting closer to the ones I already had a connection with.  These are good opportunities for us to get to know each other outside the mats, and as someone who instructs it’s a good opportunity to get to know the students as people. This benefits how we teach;  once you know more about the students it is easier to build a personal connection.  Earth day is also a good opportunity to grow our mindfulness about our community. Helping keep where we live, as well as anywhere else, clean helps us show respect to the earth. As we always talk about mindfulness I believe this is a good way of showing it.  -numbers- Sit-ups - 840 push-ups - 815 hand - 43 weapon - 61 Aok - 195 kilometers - 265 blogs - 11 + 1  sparring - 6...

This week I got the opportunity to introduce two new people to the adult class. And wow. Even though I get really anxious talking to people. But over time I found I got more comfortable with them and they seemed more comfortable with being there, as they were smiling and talking more which was really good to see. It helps show me why I love kung fu so much. Because even though they were new I felt like I already started to grow a connection with them! My numbers have been lacking again, I have been putting it off again and again. And just forgetting to track my numbers.  -numbers- Sit-ups - 840 push-ups - 815 hand - 43 weapon - 61 Aok - 185 kilometers - 250 blogs - 10 + 1  sparring - 60